Lyrics

Happy Tears

verse

I’m a mess
and I love it
eyes are red
I’m not above it

Won’t suppress
this emotion
does that make you nervous?

pre chorus 1

I can’t decide
to laugh or cry
Give me a map
for my own mind

I won’t deny
The whirlwind inside.
So I’ll let it fly
feel it or die.

chorus

Happy tears
come from deep wells
on the days when I’ve made it 
through hell

Happy tears
joy misunderstood
When the dam bursts
And I’m caught up in the flood

verse 2

Signs of stress 

I’m all over

Unpack the rest

I’m the owner

No secret I’m

Just a train wreck 

Is that such a threat?

prechorus 2

Cry out the pain

bleed out the shame

Clear out my brain

won’t try and explain

Scream out the joy

Let out the noise

Fill all the voids

What’s buried destroys

chorus

Happy tears

come from deep wells

on the days when I’ve made it 

through hell

Happy tears

joy misunderstood

When the dam bursts

And I’m caught up in the flood

All these tears

remind me

I’m alive

Creative Differences

I’ve memorized the lines 

I showed up on time

So why do I feel this empty inside

I fight for control

Cut to next scene

I’m waiting for someone good

to intervene

What what what

about what I want

so tired of this tyranny

I know know know

that’s not what I want

I decide what is best for me

Feels like I’m in actor

in a play

I am living in

Me and the director

we’ve got

creative differences

Frustrated desire

a string of misfires

This little script is smothering me

The people I love

the path that I walk

chosen by me or behind the scenes?

What what what

about what I want

so tired of this tyranny

I know know know

that’s not what I want

I decide what is best for me

Feels like I’m in actor

in a play

I am living in

Me and the director

we’ve got

creative differences

What I craved was

control of my fate

but I know I can’t

carry the weight

turn the spotlight off

and I finally see

The story is not about me

Feels like I’m in actor

in a play

I’m living in

Me and the director

we’ve got

creative differences

Good Grief

Whoever said

Everything happens for a reason

Hasn’t sat through my season

dealt with my demons 

I don’t wanna hear

The only way out is through

until you’ve stood in my shoes

seen my bad news 

good grief man I’m in sad shape

Is it cool If I lay my 

trouble at your feet? 

Will everything I’ve lost 

Help me to keep 

just what I need? 

Then I guess I 

could call this good grief

Easy to say, 

“What doesn’t kill you"

But I feel pretty weak

will I make it through in one piece

I don’t wanna pray

“your ways are higher”

when I feel pretty low

Can I take another blow?

good grief man I'm in sad shape

Am I a fool if I wear this 

heart on my sleeve? 

Could all this sorrow 

end up being worth

more than I see? 

Then I guess that I 

could call it good grief

I need more (can change to “I need something more” if need more syllables)
than

a band-aid
on a bullet hole

Give me something

Strong enough to hold

I Quit

I’ve been working on my mind

Coming aligned

Getting my brain behind 

Some divine timeline

Pretending like 

My broken heart will be fine 

I’ve been working to the bone

On letting go

My expectations low

For any ray of hope

Cause all I know

Is suffocating slow

Shovel to dirt

I keep doing the work

When you know how much it hurts

I quit

This weird experiment 

I give up to fate

I failed the test of faith

I’ll take the lesser life losers get

Because I quit

I’ve been hiking up this hill

Blisters on heels 

Yet it seems like staying still

Feeling always ill

No rest to heal

Trying to will myself to yield

I’ve been trudging through my past

Taking out trash

Doing whatever I’m asked

Putting me dead last

Wearing a mask

To keep my sanity intact

Shovel to dirt

I keep doing the work

When you know how much it hurts

I quit

This weird experiment 

I give up to fate

I failed this test of faith

I’ll take the lesser life losers get

Because I quit

Haven’t I done what you want?

Haven’t I proven I’m tough?

Is my heart not humbled enough?

Haven’t I earned my reward?

I’ve served my time on the floor

Does my joy cost that much more

Than you can afford?

Human

I look from the top

Of my kingdom

It’s all mine, for miles

Too much power?

Couldn’t be me

You all live, in denial

I’ll tear you down 

to hold me up

I don’t know how to be, human

my power blinds me I can't see how to do it

could you help me find a new way

to escape what I’ve become

So my pride is a poison

I’ll drink it to the dregs

I’m not afraid, am I wild?

I’ll tear you down 

to hold me up

I don’t know how to be, human

my power blinds me I can't see how to do it

could you help me find a new way

to escape what I’ve become

I was scared I would stay this way forever

I’ve tried so hard to find a way to change

I was wrong to see you a rival

Now I know that love can cure my rage

I don’t know how to be, human

my power blinds me I can't see how to do it

could you help me find a new way

to escape what I’ve become

Human

Human

The Fire

I’ve been running my whole life

From the fire

Chasing the darkest things

my heart desires

My selfish heart  

craves a different way

but I can fight tooth and claw

yet another day

I can’t feel the joy

but I know it will come

like a thief in the night

If the fire won’t stop

then let it burn and burn and burn

and refine me in the flames

Destroy what I idealize

Start over entire 

Purify every lie

wildfire

Could I place what I prize

on the pyre?

Dance in the flames?

let ‘em rise even higher

I can’t feel the joy

but I know it will come

like a thief in the night

If the fire won’t stop

then let it burn and burn and burn

and refine me in the flames

All my pride

Let it burn

Everything I’ve tried 

Let it burn

My mistakes

Let em burn

Set fire to my life

I finally feel alive

I can’t feel the joy

but I know it will come

like a thief in the night

If the fire won’t stop

then let it burn and burn and burn

and refine me in the flames

Stand Up / Stand Tall

My mind’s been running

body’s been broken

This heart is hardened

Can’t you see the bruise?

My joy’s been stolen

days, darkened

The future threatened

What have I got left to lose?

I’ve fallen so many times

I’ve forgotten I have the strength to…

Stand up

no matter how hard it’s been

Brush the dirt off myself 

and start over again

Stand tall

Lean on all my friends

Be kind to myself and

find a new place to begin

Stand up

Stand tall

I haven’t failed yet

haven’t quit

but I’ve found my 10,000

ways this life won’t work

If trial is a teacher,

then I’ve earned my degree

I’ll address the class 

and say

Stand up

No matter how hard it’s been

Brush the dirt off yourself and 

start over again

Stand tall

Lean on all of your friends

Be kind to yourself and

find a place to begin

Not final.

Not fatal.

This struggle

builds pretty thick skin. 

Fly on

fight long

This trouble

must have an end.

Stand up

No matter how hard it’s been

Brush the dirt off and 

start over again

Stand tall

Lean on all of my friends

Be kind to myself and

find a place to begin

Stand up

Stand tall

Stand up

Stand tall